Wise words from a wise man.
When a divine appointment is laid in front of you, it infuriates the enemy of your soul. Any barrier he can construct or re-construct becomes his agenda. He knows all about the power of Hope inside his targets and will stop at nothing to de-construct it.
“The mother hasn't been back to bible study and Katie doesn't have any information at all. I don't know what to do. I knew this was too good to be true, and this isn’t going to happen for us.”
Hopeless and discouraged, I spewed my angst on my sister.
She questioned, “Have you been praying about it?”
Perturbed, I shot back. “The end of the school year has been nuts! Work is overwhelming right now, and with everyone at my house for the wedding and graduation festivities, I can’t find any time to myself to gather my thoughts or needs to even talk to God about it!”
“Well...I’m not sure what to tell you.”
Wise words from a wise woman!
Her response humbled me. I realized the only thing over which I had control in this situation was to pray. Fervently.
Neither God nor the enemy were going to make it easy. Only I had the power to choose fear or faith. If I chose fear, I would suffer the consequences. If I chose faith, I would reap the benefits.
I ended the call and knew my sister was right. I had to hit my knees and approach this thing from there for the duration of this adventure.
Thankfully I’m in a profession that allows me a good chunk of time off to rest, recover, and play.
I started my day with quiet time in God’s Word and prayer. As always, I knew to position my heart with thankfulness and in agreement with Him about my ungrateful attitude I had been wearing. And then I picked up my wants and needs regarding this baby situation and I laid it all out before Him.
Here's what is on my heart, Lord: This baby in Oklahoma that may or may not be born yet. You created him and you created his mom, and I know you have a good plan for him. I don't know why this situation has crossed our path and I don't really understand how we fit in to it. But you do. And Lord, I don't know what to do. Nothing has happened and my friend doesn’t know anything. I don't know what you want me to do...or if you want me to do anything...
Call the prison.
Call the prison.
Tell them the scenario.
Ask for a contact name.
Lord, I'm scared. What do I say?